Soul Notes
Loosing Ourselves to Find Ourselves
Taking the risk to be vulnerable and open, intimately, can feel like you are in free-fall -- experiencing in that moment both exhilaration and terror. To risk openness is to risk the possibility of disappearing before our very own eyes. Despite our intention to keep track of who we "thought" we were – to remain our own individual self, in partnership with another, this determination (seemingly without our consent)...
Faithful to the Light
I support you in listening to your heart about whether or not a certain Choice or Action is your call or leading; others can (and often do) chime in to give their thoughts and opinions, but they have their own Light to follow. So if you find yourself in a place in your life where you don't know where the winds of change or life will be blowing – look for the unexpected. It isn’t necessary to make 'decisions'...
What if the Other Shoe NEVER drops?
For years I lived in the certainty that the proverbial “shoe would always drop”. I never doubted that this was so; it was simply a matter of time. I lived in a perpetual state of tension, sometimes extreme fear, at other times a low-grade anxiety, but absolutely always ‘on-guard’ and prepared (for I knew not what). Often I would attempt to reduce or deal with my state of anxt by mentally reconstructing my day,...
Communion of Spirit
A friend of mine once told me she believes that whenever we think of someone, they are thinking of us at the same time -- like a prayer between Souls. I wonder if it is similar to the principle of superposition -- where the quantum wavefunction of a single electron can "split" into two or more spatially separated parts, so whatever stimulus one receives the other responds. Since we are all 'One" -- "existing in...
Unified Field of Consciousness: Blessing & Curse
There is one thing that all of humanity has in common, one fact that transcends all cultures, races, religions, and socio-economic status: a Fear of the Unknown. And we collectively cope with this fear by creating a unified field of consciousness, something that we can rely upon to provide familiarity and security. Some of these unified fields are contained in religious beliefs, described in myths, or created...
Speaking Our Truth
How would it be to make a pact with ourselves to be absolutely honest in the moment, to say what we are feeling, no matter how we judge it or fear we may be judged? This is our stretching place -- to tell the truth, even if it does change from moment to moment, or changes in the moment with the telling. For me such truth-telling isn’t about nailing it down, but experiencing it so it can move and change as I do. I...
Journey to Trust
There is much 'talk' and admonition about learning to live from our heart and not from our head (to the dismay of many intellectual and scientific folks). But I can relate to the tyranny of the mind -- reflecting back on the eons of struggle, seeking to do the right thing, learn the right thing, be the right 'way', and make healthy choices. What I’ve come to realize is that very few people understand the...
Trust Your Journey
Remember that "Ruach" means Breath of Life/Spirit -- and that Ruach surrounds your very Being, the gentle caress of the air against your skin, the breath moving in and out of your nostrils as you sit in meditation. Fall into the pool of sorrow and sink to the bottom, for there is a bottom and then float, do not struggle, there is form and substance, even there. When I first saw the sculpture by Auguste Rodin called...
My Life is Here/Now
My Life is HERE, in this ‘moment’. It's not in the plans I make, nor in the things yet to come, and it certainly isn't in the things that have happened to me. These have are already passed or may yet never be. Judging the moment, telling myself: “I don’t like what is happening, who I am, or what I've done” is not the same as Being in the Moment. And it drains the life force from my being. When I am absolutely,...
I AM “Good Enough”
When I start to examine my Life I get into trouble. When I compare my insides to other people’s outsides, I get into trouble. I periodically find myself in moments of doubt, questioning the choices that I’ve made, questioning the paths that I’ve taken. Wondering if I had ‘zigged’ instead of ‘zagged’, how might my life be different? And in these moments I realize that 20/20 vision is not always to my benefit. I...
Life is Magic
If we lived life like a spider, we would see infinite possibilities -- we wouldn't see empty space, but infinite options to anchor our Life. Every day we can start a new design. We can retrace our steps or explore open space, drop a strand where once there was no line. Blending spider medicine with Wisdom, we recognize chance provides more opportunities for living then relying on intellect, conditioning, or...
The Web We Weave
Each moment presents a choice, and results in a choice. Choices. Free will or pre-ordained? Right or Wrong? Good or Bad? Anxiety arises. Living becomes mental, and we become lost. Not understanding that the web weaves itself. That 'Yes' can become 'No', 'Right' can lead to the 'Middle' and become 'Left'. "Right Action" is the only action, the best choice we see in the moment. Until the next moment. –...
Cultivating Our Heart
Cultivating Our Heart -- is going into the deepest part of our being to find our Selves and God. Begin upon waking in the morning by focusing inward, into your very core -- sense you There deep within. Anything that flows out beyond that feels unimportant, because we take up residence up in the Space in-between. Eventually we discover that this is the only space that we desire to occupy – in-between. The...
Crossing the Divide
Invite Surrender and Cross the Divide. In the practice of vigilant prayer and meditation we exhaust ourselves, saturate ourselves, strive through our efforts to release, release, release. Space appears and then disappears, sitting in hope that eventually we cross the Divide. What is the Divide? It is the moment, the nanosecond, the space between self-awareness and God-Awareness. When our breath joins with the...
The Truth of Surrender
Often times people think that Surrender is when we’ve given up, or allowed ourselves to move from a state of struggle to a state of peace. We are trained to 'look for' that kind of Surrender, something that is tangible, that moves us from ‘here to there’. The truth is that peace, allowance, serenity, acceptance and release are the outcomes of Surrender. Surrender is an experience, the electrical impulse or...
One Breath at a Time
Cultivating Surrender is not just about the desire to give up the fight, it’s not even the desire to give up our will; nor is it a mental process of praying, praying, praying and saying ‘Thy Will Be Done” and then having a new state of awareness come forth. The fastest way to Surrender is simply to pray to be with – if all we do is focus on the Breath, our Breath, this moment. Breathing in this Moment, breathing...
The Journey to “Good Enough”
When I’m in the ‘moment’, when I give myself up to the experience, when I choose ‘this thing to do’ or ‘that place to be’ or ‘that experience to have’, it is all I want to do. And I find that I am incredibly content with myself. It’s beyond contentment really; it is the experience of LIFE, of feeling my LIFE; of being plugged in. All I am aware of is feeling full, there is nothing happening in my thoughts, there...
Full to Overflowing
On the days my glass is 'half-full" I go away and I doubt God. And when I can’t doubt God, I doubt myself. And depending on my mood, I can stay in this zone for an hour, a day, a week and lose myself completely in this spiral. Examining: “How did I let myself down?” “Where did I not take the road less traveled?” “How can I transform my life?” Or I try to create movement by telling myself: “If I am responsible...